So Catch Me Up I'm Getting Out Of Here.

I've been listening to New Perspective by Panic at the Disco. IT IS AWESOME. I can totally relate to the lyrics and it's so easy on the ears and it sounds great. It's a dynamite song.

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New hair! Gotta get my bangs evened out though. Strange stylist.

Gah.

Honestly, I really hate sounding whiny or bratty but, I want to go shopping! I know, I just bought new shoes but it seems incomplete. I love Topshop to death and there is no Topshop on the entire West Coast. Online shopping is a pain and I'm gonna miss Topshop when I get back so, I have absolutely every plan of going to Topshop and buying as much stuff as possible. Sides, school is almost starting. A new wardrobe sounds mighty fabulous!

Cara.

My niece is way cool.

Cousin..

YAY!

Today, I bought new shoes at Topshop. What did you do? ;D

Late Night Doodle at 3:30AM

Cupcakes.

Once again..

I got bored.

I am lame.

Hi. Meet my brother Brian in doodle form.

This is him in real life.

Sweet.

It's been several days AFTER my birthday. I am 16 now. And it doesn't feel any different. Part of me truly does forget the fact that I am 16. It doesn't feel like it. But anyways I'm STILL here in Manila. It STILL sucks. Ugh. I love my high-waisted wide length trousers from Topshop. They are very rad. I love love love them. Unfortunately, my Mother, removed the hemming of one pant leg by "accident". Therefore, one pant leg is longer than the other. Although they weren't on sale, they were pretty cheap. Yay! Either way, I do have to get them a bit shortened.

/Sigh

A taste?

Finally going to reveal something I've been working on for a while now. Mostly planning, but now I'm putting it to work.

I guess photo shop can do anything..

Photo shop can even make my nerdy, plays with Transformers, 23 year old brother into something cool.

Uuuh.

Nothing to do. Now what?

Found this randomly.

Don't remember this picture AT ALL. Just found it on my laptop. I think it looks pretty. :)

5:34AM

It is 5:34AM here in Manila, Philippines and I can't sleep for shit. But hey, now I can do rounded edges on Photoshop. ;D

3 Bars & 100's of Friendly, Furry Guys

I am really bad at coming up with names. But, this is New Year's Eve at the Castro. Enjoy.

Blank Expressions

Ooer.

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From 12/2008 but I like it. I hope you do to. P.S. I don't even remember taking this picture.

Late Night Doodle at 4AM

I've never shown my drawings to the public. Here is one. Enjoy.

Church - ugh.

Hailing from the Philippines going to mass was the most important thing. But in all honesty, I never really saw the point in going to mass. Some say it's an obligation. I say, it's a waste of my time. Why is that? I guess it's cause my parents always forced me to go to church. They pretty much forced me to do something i didn't want to do. And, we all know how well that turned out. [Hint of sarcasm.]

Going to mass for me is pointless. People may see it as something that we should do, but for me, I'll go when I want to or when I feel like it. I won't go cause I have to, I'll go when I want to. I'm not giving up on my religion or am I saying that going to mass sucks. I'm saying it's pointless and I have no reason to be there. That is what my personal opinion. Going to mass isn't as important to me as it is for some people. I should be given a choice on whether I want to go to mass or not. It's just not fair that my parents are forcing me to do something I don't want to do. If I want to go to mass then I'll go if I don't want to, then I won't. NOBODY SHOULD BE FORCED TO DO SOMETHING THAT THEY DON'T WANT TO DO.

Honestly, the more we force people to do something, the more they rebel. Just let people be. Is it honestly that hard?

Baking.

This reminds me about how much I haven't been baking. I haven't been baking in forever. OK, all summer. I haven't done much photography either. It makes me feel guilty. I'm not sure why, but it does. Gah. This Saturday, I will bake. I am going to bake a cake. Not sure what kind of cake, but I will bake a cake nevertheless. A birthday cake for my cousin. She is awesome. HARRY POTTER!!!!!!!!

I had to. :D

You know..

I'm happy that I'm finally making an effort to go out this summer. Usually, I don't give a rats ass about anything and just say eff that, I'm staying the fuck home. But no, not this year. I'm seeing people, I'm enjoying myself. Of course not all the time, but I'm still enjoying myself nevertheless. I went out with C today. I met him about four years ago during a cello class. Right then and there, I thought he was the cutest guy ever. But then, we stopped talking after a long time. Meaning, when I moved back to San Francisco. But, now we're talking again. It feels pretty good. He's a great friend and that's what really matters to me. But of course, part of me wishes we were a little bit more. DUH. So, we had brunch at the Pancake House, the original plan was to go to Heaven n' Eggs, however, they already closed. Ergh. So, we ate there at 10AM, didn't leave til about 12-ish. Then we went to Katipunan and hung out there. It was fun. It felt like I was totally happy. Then he had to go to frisbee, and well, I ended up going to Galleria on my own. Ugh. But, it was nice. I got to think for myself. Inquire about party invitations for my sweet 16, which was lots of fun! But it's a $100 for 50 invites. Over priced much? Or just right? I can't tell. But either way, I'm having a spa party. That should be fun. I'm excited for it. Yoga, manicures and pedicures, swimming, finger food, massages; that sounds just damn fabulous to me. Plus, a mini cake! Yay me! I recently reminded myself that I have to be up at 4AM Philippines time for a video chat with the team. Greeeaaaat. I'm hella tired to. But, what can I do? I made a damn commitment. So, I think I'll be seeing C again this Saturday. We may be going to Greenhills. I love it there. It's always so damn relaxing. Hmmm, what to wear? Ah well, I have all week to decide.

I really hope he didn't dislocate his shoulder again. -_-

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You know, no matter how much I say "I miss SF." or "I want to go back to SF already." And no matter how much I whine about being here in the Philippines, it always breaks my heart when I think about leaving this beautiful country. Sure, I've had my share of bad experiences, but I love it here. I also love SF. The idea of not living in SF breaks my heart. But the idea of leaving my sister, brother, and Mom here in the Philippines, breaks my heart even more. It crumples it up.

Does this confuse you?

Boredom 101

Ugh. I'm tired and I can't sleep. Not to mention the fact that I am very BORED. I need something to do. I'm being whiny again.

So, HE apologized. Well, tried to. I wasn't really paying attention to much of it. Then I got an offline message from him. I'm not really sure what to do with it. At the beginning I was only really mad at him to punish him. Now, it's kind of for funsies. That's really cruel, but it's true. There's not much I can do about that. OK, so there's a lot that I can do about that, I guess I'm just choosing not to. He hurt my feelings in more ways then one. I never did anything to him. And he made me cry. Frankly, he can go [excuse my French] fuck himself with something long, hard, and sand papery. But then again, he may just like that. Eugh.

Whatever, I am tired of all this bullshit. But, new stress has arrived. Oh joys. -_-

If it helps

I am tired. I am very tired. I'm being whiny. Eff that.