When I Say Shotgun, You Say Wedding.

So, on August 14, 2008, I watched Panic at the Disco live in Manila. It feels so surreal. Spencer threw his drumstick to the audience and lucky me, I caught it. Then, some bitch took it from me. That bitch. Karma will soon bite here in the ass. I hope. Haha, I have a lot more photos but those will be going onto my MySpace and my Multiply! Yah! I pretty much lost my voice. It hurts to talk, but I still sing their songs in my head. I just love love love Panic at the Disco. There was this point when everything was quiet and someone yelled, Spencer, then I yelled, I love you Spencer! I looked at him and he was all smiles. He must've felt very very flattered. I loved watching them. Crowned King opened for them, they were fabulous. Not as a good as Panic at the Disco, but fabulous never the less. I can't wait to see them again in October. It will be great! I loved watching them. I have a few more videos, but right now, I think one is enough. Enjoy.

I really love Spencer. I love love love love him.

Love in the Afternoon

So, today I went to the Panic At The Disco, meet and greet or autograph signing. Spencer called me pretty. Hiee! It was so much fun, and I love it. I was in Podium almost all day. I got in line at around, four or five pm, the signing was at six. It was so much fun. When I saw Brendon, I was speechless. He is so gorgeous. He was smiling so much. Then, it was Ryan, he wasn't smiling that much, but I noticed that he was sort of enjoying himself with that fleeting smile of his. After is was Jon, he was smiling and was just enjoying himself. Lastly Spencer, I was yelling things like, I love you Spencer! The whole time. I really do. Haha, he was smiling and having fun, and he made conversation. I liked that. But the lady by the stairs was such a fridgy bitch. She was yelling, and she even told my friend Analiza, that if she didn't put the camera away, she would take it. That woman really needed to get laid. Haha. I love Panic at the Disco. Can't wait to see them live tomorrow. Yay! 

In 6 days

There are many ways to say hello. There are also many ways to say good bye. In six days I say goodbye. Yet three months ago, I said hello. I don't want to leave, but I also can't wait to leave. It's complicated, but it's true. There's only one way to do this, and it's to sing, "Hello, Goodbye" by The Beatles. In my opinion is the song that really describes my emotions. Enjoy.

If you want the song, go on YouTube.

You say yes, I say no
You say stop and I say go, go, go
Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello

I say high, you say low
You say why, and I say I don't know
Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello

Why, why, why, why, why, why
Do you say good bye
Goodbye, bye, bye, bye, bye

Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye I say hello
Hello

Hela, heba helloa
Hela, heba helloa

There's nothing lamer then a fake ami.

You know what I've been thinking? I've been thinking of the numerous times that I feel invisible. I constantly feel invisible. And I don't know why. A simple request cannot be done. A simple question cannot be answered. And a simple task cannot be done. We all get that feeling. We all feel like we're invisible and that no one notices us. The thing is, it's always like that. Everywhere, we all feel like we should be noticed, like we have to be the center. It's at that moment when we feel like we're not invisible, when we feel like we belong is the only time we feel good about ourselves. That feeling keeps us grounded. It keeps us sane.

In case you haven't noticed, those without friends, those who are alone, feel the worst. Feel invisible. They're sad. They feel like an outcast and they feel like they don't belong. Some still feel like that even when they're with "friends". They still feel like they don't belong. They still feel like an outcast. It's not something to enjoy. It's the worst.

You may be wondering, how do I know how this feels? It's simple, I was one of those girls who was without friends, who was an outcast. I had a "friends". Well, these "friends" constantly stabbed me in the back and I always felt like an outcast.

I had a good set of friends at the beginning of the school year. Then one of the girls started hating me because of my I was a perfectionist. And well, then it got weird. And awkward, after that it felt like they were keeping stuff from me. And I've had that feeling before.

I have this 6th sense. I gained it when I was in 4th Grade. This 6th sense of mine, well, I can tell when things are going on, like when I'm not wanted or when they have a secret they refuse to tell me even if it concerns all of us. I know these things, and it's just obvious.

You know what, I'll just get straight to the point, include everyone, be nice, never judge based on looks alone or on their "social standing". Give respect if you want respect. Seriously, don't let that inner bitch out. A lot of people don't deserve it.

Drunken Dreams and Karaoke Nights..

It's been a while since I posted. Almost a month, there are a few reasons why. But nothing that's important. The truth is, it's almost my birthday. My 15th birthday, ey? Who would've thought that things would be this crazy? Honestly, let's reflect on what happened last year.

Last year at this time, I created the GossipGirl blog. I was a high school freshman at STC. And I made one, just one. I feel like I should be clearing the air on this because some folks still believe that I created multiply blogs although I did not. I made one. The first one. I deleted it already but then, RumorQueen resurfaced and I remade the blog, but it's useless. So don't even bother bashing on it.

Last year at this time, I was angry. Angry at everything. Angry at my Mom for not spending time with me. Angry at my sister for constantly barading me about my weight. I was angry at my supposed friends who would stab me behind my back and make fun of me because of my weight.

Last year at this time, I just wanted to get away.

Must be dreaming...

I applaud you Rumor Queen. I really do. You see, here I am, minding my own business and of course picking on you for talking smack about my friends and posting it on your blog. You see, I do things differently around here. I know exactly what you've been doing. I know what's going on in your head. I suggest that you start packing up, because it is definitely time for you to leave. If I say you have no right to what you're doing, that would censorship. It would go against your right to freedom of speech, but when you're talking smack about my friends and myself, then it's time for me to kick your ass. Ask around what I'm capable of, you'll have no problem whatsoever in receiving answers.

Watch your back slut.

Come out, come out wherever you are.

Ooer...

Looks like a little ghost from the past is resurfacing. Better watch our backs. Hahaha. This summer, should be entertaining. Can't wait to get to Manila. We should all have fun this year, I know it. I can smell it.

Well, well, well, looks like our little friend Gossip Girl is back for another dose of entertainment. This time, around, it should be fun.

See you all on Monday.

It's officially, official.

I are leaving tomorrow. My flight is at 10:30PM. Bitches, I'm coming back. It's been a long awaited return, of moi, so just soak it in and let the partying, begin. Now, now, now, you all remember that little scandal, that happened just before I left? Well, someone's trying to recreate it but, whatever.

Schedule:

• Departure of SFO: June 12
• Arrival in NAIA: June 14
• The day I go back to visit the little ones at STC: June 16

"Remember, remember, the 16th of
June, the gunpowder treason and
plot. I know of no reason why the
gunpowder treason should ever be
forgot."

I would like to thank...

I love it when people try to be me! Hahaha. Well, not me per say, but try to imitate what I did at STC. Holy fucking hell, how stupid can this girl be? Seriously, sweetie, don't bother. Your blog was no where near as scandalous as mine was. You're pathetic.

"How pathetic are you? Sweetie, there's no point in copying what I did. I made the VERY FIRST BLOG. I'm not denying it either. There were others yes, but I made none of those. Only the first. So look here kiddo, there's no point. Nothing new on your supposedly "scandalous" blog. Just a pathetic wannabe."

See. That is the comment I gave to you on your supposedly oh so scandalous blog. It's no use. STC has been there and done that. What you're doing is a pathetic call for attention. So sweetie, don't even bother. You're obviously new to this game. But you see, you've already lost. I'm just waiting to see what pathetic come back you have.

lay with me tonight.

Well, DA finally broke up with his girlfriend. A little too late I might add. I moved on during that month because if I didn't move on for myself no one would move on for me.

At present I like no one.

Star testing is coming up. That means non-stop studying and a lot of bullshit. Ain't that a clicker??

At present, not much is going on. But I promise to keep you posted.